I've worked out that if I buy fourteen bananas, I can eat them in seven days without them becoming unbearable. I have to be very strategic - lay them out individually in the fridge so they aren't on top of each other and don't get bruised.
I tried peeling them and cutting them up and putting them in tupperware and freezing them. They are as hard as ice then and broke my handheld blender, which isn't made to chop ice. I tried putting whole bananas in the freezer and then taking them back out. They melt into a highly concentrated super-sweet viscous fluid that is just disgusting.
This makes me sad because I love my daily banana strawberry shakes.
I guess I will just have to move somewhere where I am conveniently close to a store that sells organic bananas.
The general way it goes is, x percentage are in favor, y percentage are opposed, and 100-(x+y) are undecided. So you go after the undecided.
It just bugs me because of how reactive all the strategy is.
I believe in statistics. I believe in standard deviations, and sample sizes, and if a small sample size has the following beliefs, than the population at large will also tend to have those beliefs within so-and-so level of certainty.
But I also think it misses the whole fucking point of leadership and group emotionality. Statistics can't measure paradigm shifts, it can't measure emotional realizations. If you take a stand and invite the negative statistical reaction without waffling or pandering... then what's on the other side? I don't think that's explored near enough.
What's the statistical explanation for the child that pointed out the naked emporer?
My todo list application is pretty cool. But it doesn't allow for that latter case.
Have I described my todo list application? It's basically a todo list that has dependencies. For instance, I need to launch my new company name. But, before I can do that, I need to get business cards, and a new website. And before doing that, I need to decide on a new domain name.
Now, I don't want all those things on my todo list, because why bother even thinking about that later stuff? It would make the todo list just seem overwhelming. I can't even do some of that later stuff. There are dependencies.
So I wrote it to allow me to specify these dependencies, and then what happens is that on the root level of the list, it only shows the todo items that I am enabled to do.
So, once I decide on my new domain name (which I've done, incidentally), I check it off, and then the two items it enables appear in its place. It is pretty nifty and makes my todo list seem easier.
However, the thing I don't have implemented it this. In order to get my new domain name started, I have to *either* send clients to my graphic designer friend (in which case she will do my site for free), *or* tell her I'll pay her. Either is sufficient, neither are necessary by themselves. If either are completed, the other should also automatically be completed. That would be nifty.
Finally, I want to add categories (even multiple categories per item), and a priority indication. Maybe even a due date indication. Then it would be super cool.
This is all web-based. After that's all done, maybe I'll even learn how to make it an actual OS X application or something.
You know, I found Andrew Sullivan's latest article about Harry Belafonte thought-provoking. But then he had to practically ruin it with his clumsily manipulative last paragraph:
"The question to be asked of the left is therefore a simple one: Are you in favor of bigotry or against it? If you're against it, how can you not criticize and, indeed, ostracize a bigot like Belafonte?"
Did this guy ever even take a logic course? This is one of the most stupid argument techniques there is, and is a lot more common from the "ideological certainty" of the right. Dictate the terms of an argument and then present a false choice - if the recipient resists the question, they're a coward, and if they go along with it, they're trapped. "If you don't ostracize Belafonte, you're a bigot." Please. Salon should hold its journalists to higher standards. It's ironic that Sullivan would make this argument when the recurring thread in his argument is respecting individuality. How is this not hypocrisy?
I have a long vent about Jackass but now is not the time.
I have to admit, I tend to roll my eyes at shock-value out-of-context statistics. But come on.
This article has a lovely closing, by the way. "Sometimes they are just evil." Aaargh. Maybe I wouldn't have been as bothered by it 18 months ago, but all the post-9/11 stuff has made this a sore point for me.
Even though I might seem otherwise, I'm not someone who believes that the most depraved (in our eyes) members of society are simply these poor misunderstood souls that can or should be "saved". I'm actually comfortable with seeing some souls as just inherently different than others, or soulless, or consciousless, or empty, or very, very, very different than human, or deserving a very different "right place" for themselves than I would have for myself. But what frustrates me about the "Ah, they're just evil..." response is that it sweeps aside much more than just the supposed need to validate the criminal. It sweeps away our emotional response to what the criminal represents, it sweeps away our analysis of the criminal's effect on our common surroundings, and it sweeps away our duty to look at what enables that criminal to exist in the first place. It's lazy and it pisses me off.
I have this theory that when someone volunteers a pat answer to an upsetting concept and then moves on, they are practicing avoidance inside themselves and are acting out of fear. What a missed opportunity to come to more understandings inside ourselves. To practice what I preach, I think I'll go sit with this for a while...
Sometimes a year doesn't feel all that momentous. I guess I have had some major changes but I don't have a lot of external stuff to show for it. My body is still about the same shape. I have about the same energy level. I still worry about some of the same things. I still have a lot of the same goals, and I have put off a lot of the same things I was putting off last year - like writing another song.
But I guess a lot did happen. I had a breakup, with the girl I met when I was eleven, fell in love with when I was 19, shattered my heart over when I was 21, nursed a complex over until I was 26, got back together with when I was 27, lived with in Santa Cruz while I was 28, and in Eugene while I was 29 and 30. We broke up right after I was 31... she is now living in the same city with me and we hang out often and who knows if we'll get back together, but right now it's better that we are broken up.
I also started a new career - for this entire year I have not made one dime of salaried income, but I have made more freelance money than I made in my first year out of college. I guess that's something.
That's really about it. In both those spheres I have a lot more confidence as a person, and as an independent. I doubt it is really noticeable if someone were to go back and read over all my blog entries for the past year, but I feel it inside, anyway.
And who knows, maybe the blog helped, just a little bit. I'll keep doing it, just in case.
Back in the car, he suggests that she stay at his place for the night. Mirabelle takes this as an expression of his caring, which it is. It is just that his caring is a potion, mixed with one part benevolent altruist and one part chimpanzee penis.
Great book.
So tonight I open up print center and deleted the nonworking printer, and added it again - the ip of my linux box. And this time instead of selecting "choose default printer on server", I decided to explicitly type in "lp".
Printed a pdf document, came out perfectly.
Oh well. Damaged pride and humliation, but happy that my printer works.
Blog content stored in xml format Blog software is a daemon that receives entries Daemon can receive entries locally or remotely Blog daemon regenerates content of blogpage(s) when entries are published (which can be on receipt). Blog daemon is open-source and can be hosted extended on my own server. Blog daemon could also be installed as a service to remotely publish to other multiple blogpages if someone wanted to do that (have subscribers). Blog daemon could also read an *rss feed* as an alternative data format, to display in snazzy html or whatever.What I really want in an rss aggregation tool:
It will tell me of feeds I can subscribe to. While browsing, it will automatically discover new feeds, either by - letting me drag urls into the rss reader - hooking into my browser and letting me press a button in my browser to subscribe to the feed (better) - silently scrape rss feeds as I browse, to be collected into an "approve?" list when I go back to the reader, after which I can pull them into my actual rss read list. It will remember what I have read and what I haven't. It will let me select favorite items within any feed, and categorize them into a favorite categories. It will let me sort these flagged items by category, into new RSS feeds, complete with attribution, and let me write further comments around them if I so choose. It will let me syndicate these new aggregated feeds, probably by publishing them to my website.
There isn't a blog tool that does all that. There isn't an aggregation tool that does all that. When they exist, the end result is true aggregated collaborative syndication.
I really don't like Lieberman, by the way. He's about as far away as one can get from my ideal democrat.
Anyway, Leven's amendment was pretty interesting. It was basically giving Bush exactly what he says he wants. Which is entirely different than what the white house/lieberman amendment wants. It says, we're authorized to use multilateral force. We're authorized to use force in accordance with a U.N. recognized failure of Iraq to meet resolutions. And if the President feels the U.N. is moving too slow, it allows for the President to come back at that time and call the Congress together on very short notice to attempt to approve unilateral force at that time.
Which is exactly what Bush said he wanted in his speech to the public. Something about the need to be able to use force if Iraq does not comply with demands the US is crafting through the U.N.
What the white house bill is requesting is the ability to use unilateral force now, to ignore the U.N. if the president decides he wants to (and until further notice - no sunset).
Now, this isn't speaking to my own personal beliefs of what should be done. I'm way too confused to be able to put that into words. But I like the Leven amendment just as a technique to clear away the manipulative murkiness that Bush is trying to pull and say, "This is what you are trying to convince the public you want. Go ahead and take it."
So what'll really happen? This'll be derided as not having enough teeth, or of getting in the way of the president, or he'll be called a terrorist-lover, or whatever. And of course, I didn't see one word written about this tonight in the evening press.
What do I think should happen? I have no idea, and frankly don't have patience for the peaceniks that think that what should be done is to "not go to war!". The question is what to do, not what to not do. I mean, I agree that we just should not be in a time and place right now where we need to go to war, and I also believe that if there actually is a legitimate need for us to "solve this problem", it's largely our own damn fault.
But what's maddening is that I firmly believe that before we start doing the right things, we have to first stop doing the wrong things. And I don't know what the hell they are, and we never find out until years after they happen.
Since we're all theorizing, I'll just throw ideas out there that expose my lack of foreign policy knowledge. I think we should reduce our dependence on foreign oil. That's the only power they have over us. Then we could stop seeing them as adversaries. Concurrently, we should scale back and eventually eliminate all the occupying we are doing over there. That's the whole problem that Osama had with us. Having a presence in another region should be for the purposes of communication and cultural presence, not control.
Then we stop sanctions. I don't understand sanctions. They're good at hurting a disorganized country, but organized countries just find ways around it. And sanctions then reduce whatever positive influence we have over these countries by making american stuff (thought, ideals, democracy) even less accessible to them. The way to encourage goodness is to be good in a visible manner, isn't it? When we sanction, don't we just cut ourselves off from them?
Then just spend all this money that we'd be spending on war, spend it on aid. Aid that isn't funneled through corrupt governments, aid that is instead funneled through independent and, I guess, U.N. recognized aid organizations. Use the money to make friends on the ground.
After a while the only folks that would hate us would be the true freaks, and not the people actually sort of have a point when they say we are the global bullies that need to be resisted. Spend money on infrastructure that can't be controlled by their governments. Give their people more ability to act like a democracy in a way that their governments can't stop. Give them decentralized communications technology for them to use if they want, relax immigration standards so they can come to America. Pass stricter anti-trust laws in America at the same time as passing more incentives for small and mid-sized businesses, and then encourage the smaller and mid-sized companies in America to be able to invest in these other countries, expanding in an interdependent but NOT monopolistic manner.
Start culture exchange programs. Import films and art exhibits. Fund public television to advertise an understanding of other cultures. Allow them to invest in our companies.
I guess where I'm going this is that I believe countries are about culture, not resources. I don't care about protecting our country's GDP or whatever, the point is the world's GDP and our ability to share resources. It's not about building profit at the expense of someone else, it's about increasing efficiency everywhere, and protecting the cultural diversity at the same time. There's a difference between integration and homogenization.
All right, the layman stops talking. Back to work.
Anyway, over the years a few people here and there have contacted me and expressed admiration or desire to do something with my songs. A dance teacher choreographed a whole dance routine to "Vagabond Blues" for his dance class at University of Colorado and sent me a video tape. A student in southern california expressed his desire to get his school choir to sing As One - that never went anywhere. And the guy I wrote it for, Manny, had a friend that evidently just fell in love with it and asked my permission a long time to create a club/house/dance mix of it (of all things) for personal use about 3-4 years ago.
Well, he just wrote me and told me he's done and wants to mail me a copy! This should sure be interesting. The first time any of my music has been rerecorded by another artist.
Interesting how these things tend to take on a life of their own. Conceptually, I love it.
Now, here is something weird. Reading this article reminded me of an introduction I had to some sort of "club" in junior high. I don't know how they got hold of me or picked me, but I was invited to an introductory meeting. They talked about this and that, seemed like pretty cool guys, if a big geeky, they mentioned how they had a long history of famous members including Leonarda da Vinci, then said they were going to show us one of their most serious ceremonies, and proceeded to go into a room that was like a churchy sort of atrium, light a bunch of candles, put on some robes, and chant. It was pretty freaky. I went home, my parents asked how it went, and I said that I didn't think it was for me and promptly forgot all about it.
So, I just did a google search on "Leonardo da Vinci Secret Society" and the first page I checked out links the society, which they say is named "The Priory of Sion", with Opus Dei, the article I just read.
Dunh dunh dunh. How's that for a fairly creepy coincidence?
"Now, this muscle formula is amazing. You start taking it, and you will have washboard stomachs within a day. Within one day, it's that powerful. One day if you are in shape, like I am. When we were touring, there were people all over the country buying this stuff. So many people bought it that some of them actually might have gotten seriously hurt from it, but I haven't heard anything. I guess I'm supposed to tell you that. Anyway, you take that stuff and you would have the best kind of "sober high", and for three months!"
My dreams are awesome. I mean, that's a pretty damn funny monologue.
It almost seems like this whole "Centrist" thing is its own political party now. They should make their own platform.
I'd feel happier if this deadline weren't so damn stressful.
I don't feel like looking it up. First person to tell me what the reference actually is will get a free compliment.
It all started with this project that I have right now. Well, we have a database expert, a graphic designer, the person who converted the graphics into the html pages, and me - the glue guy. My job is to write all the perl. I write the interfaces to the database, and I write the "control" layer that gets the data from the interfaces and passes them on to the templates (the html pages).
Overall it's a lot of fun, I have to admit - I am good enough at the programming now that I can develop a really well-organized API to program against, and it should be easily maintainable. But the schedule has been murder. She wanted six weeks, but it sort of assumed that we could parallelize some things that weren't easily parallelable. (Parallelable, n: When you have to sing TWO songs to your kid to get them to go to sleep.) We had to develop the database schema while I was writing the API, which is never a great idea.
So all this week I have been staying up later and later. Last night it was 6 am. I woke up at 2pm. I am getting more and more desperate to find my zone and am generally stressed out at this time of night, except when I take a break to eat a quick chicken sandwich (fake vegetarian chicken of course). Which I'm doing now. Yay blogging.
Really looking forward to when I have some time to do some of my own programming projects again. I'd really like to get a new version of storysprawl up and running...
What a day, life, bleah. So I had a good client about a month ago and everything was very nicey-nice. The client's coder was a friend of mine, and he brought me in. I did the work, billed, got the check, everything was very nice. Then I heard today (after asking) that she tried to bust his nuts because I billed twice as many hours as he had estimated the job would take a month before I was brought in. I was inheriting a codebase, had to learn his custom-made MVC approach, and there were spec changes to boot. It's not like I'm twice as slow as this other guy or anything - I'd be faster now that I have the familiarity that he had.
Can't think of a very good way to handle that. That just sucks.
I'm trying super-hard to get a new project/client launched in the next few days. Today's a big day because tomorrow we show a bunch of stuff to the client. It's a bit tough because there are database dependencies and sometimes my hands are tied when I'm waiting on that stuff.
I've also been playing Onimusha 2 over at Pete's house. I got cantankerous and wrote something up the other day, and Peter blogged it.
Not much else going on. Just sorta pushing through.