Hunting The Muse

Even though it's technically

Even though it's technically Thursday, I haven't slept yet, so I am pretending that it's still the 16th. Why the 16th? Because, I started this blog one year ago today. I just had to acknowledge the one-year-anniversary of my blog.

Sometimes a year doesn't feel all that momentous. I guess I have had some major changes but I don't have a lot of external stuff to show for it. My body is still about the same shape. I have about the same energy level. I still worry about some of the same things. I still have a lot of the same goals, and I have put off a lot of the same things I was putting off last year - like writing another song.

But I guess a lot did happen. I had a breakup, with the girl I met when I was eleven, fell in love with when I was 19, shattered my heart over when I was 21, nursed a complex over until I was 26, got back together with when I was 27, lived with in Santa Cruz while I was 28, and in Eugene while I was 29 and 30. We broke up right after I was 31... she is now living in the same city with me and we hang out often and who knows if we'll get back together, but right now it's better that we are broken up.

I also started a new career - for this entire year I have not made one dime of salaried income, but I have made more freelance money than I made in my first year out of college. I guess that's something.

That's really about it. In both those spheres I have a lot more confidence as a person, and as an independent. I doubt it is really noticeable if someone were to go back and read over all my blog entries for the past year, but I feel it inside, anyway.

And who knows, maybe the blog helped, just a little bit. I'll keep doing it, just in case. Posted by Curt at October 17, 2002 05:15 AM